Kaylan's Life Lessons
I learned that you don't have to have bruises to have been abused.
I was taught I had to understand that it's my responsibility to keep others happy and safe by giving them things they want to have from me. I had to keep myself safe by pretending, lying, being good in sports, and keeping secrets. I have since learned this wasn't my job, but it was a smart thing to do, because I was only a kid.
On my journey to adulthood, I learned my childhood coping mechanisms did not serve me well - I was lost, or maybe I never even began my journey.
I learned it was time to go on a journey to discover me. Sometimes I'd think I'd found it after four or five drinks or two or three pills, but it got lost in that same old embarrassment, shame and blame the morning after.
What I learned was that I had to put away, for good, many of the things I used as a child to survive. I know that it is important to say "YES" to what you want to see in your life, even it it's way beyond your safe boundaries, and it scares you and doesn't feel good. That's the process of you starting to get to your truth, and in the end, it will set you free.
Yes! to finally lighting my own windows, with words on the pages, so you can peer into my life, and if you get goose bumps or an "Aha" moment, you will recognize parts of it might be true for you too. You will know you are not alone and that you can survive and prosper beyond what you ever can imagine. You can accomplish dreams you have not yet dared to dream. Know that I am here for you. I love you. And at any age you can create a brilliant life and light up your own windows for someone else.